Crowfeather

Why no one can say what love is, is that it is a deeply personal thing, and one can give you a thousand examples from one’s own life, which may or may not have meaning in yours. And the one telling you is telling you exactly what love is, something that cannot be explained in the abstract, in the dictionary way, in the philosophy way, in the soundbite way, because it’s a bigger thing than will fit in some set of pithy words, an action of a heart in movement with such purpose that is incomprehensible if one does not already have in their own experience what it is like to be so moved. It is the meaning of life, and anyone who has truly known it will wonder for a moment why the deep thinkers have tried in vain to derive that meaning from anything else. What is love? You fool — try it, try it for real, and you’ll know in a nanosecond.

What does it take to be an everyman?

I know I let another day slip by, the time floating through me and encroaching upon my skin, making it slowly, inevitably more like stone. This is all a dream. But I write things down, anyway, even if the paper will vanish come the end of night. I find the madness comes and goes, the thought that is not a thought leaving me twisted — if only for a moment. I have seen snakes in the fire. Seeing, too, that I have been alone for some time, now, occasionally happy in my own way: I have forgotten what is touch, what it is to feel someone breathing. Notions: another day has fallen, another cycle closed, a dream forgotten. 

This came to me more or less all at once, on Dec. 28, 2009. My brother was in the room at the time, and I was on cold medicine. I scanned the journal page where I wrote it down:

http://johnhdoe.com/me/images/theoretica2.jpg

Then a little while later I did it up proper in OmniGraffle, to present it to you thus:

http://theoretica.info/

It just may be the means of reasoning, or at least the basis for it, for my AI. 

I put up Lisp code, colorized and pretty, whenever I have any significant update. Three of them, which are the main functioning of QuickAI, which you could call my life's work. 

• Fathomr — the main logic, implementing what I call "Sliplogic". 
• Radiplex — the grunt work behind the logic, which implement "Radiplex Networks".
• Expressm — the point of contact between the logic and the outside world (input/output).